I’m not broken or anything right now, but sometimes reminders like these really hits you hard.
When my grandma passed away 3 years ago..
I never got the chance to really say good bye to her. all i received was a phone call from a relative in vietnam announcing to my mom that she’s gone.. and then i just knew as i saw my mom breaking down from the call..
as i watched my mom fall to the ground… all i could do .. is watch.. and pretend i don’t comprehend the loss .. to lessen the pain for my mom..
i didn’t want the reality.. to hurt her more than it needed to be…
i remembered as i left vietnam the very year before.. i never really said good bye to my grandma because i told her that i will be back.. and i will guarantee that when I am back i will be a doctor.
sometimes thinking back to how fragile people are.. how our ignorance, overconfidence or taking things for granted.. really hurts.. when it happens..
so ever since..i told myself i was not going to waste any more time.. i was gonna find a way.. to succeed a faster time frame..
leading to what i have today..
but lately, i have been procrastinating once again.. taking things for granted again..
There are two courses in life:
1. To change the fate of the future
or 2. To appreciate every moment.
As one strive to change the fate of the future, one losses the present moments. As one strive to appreciate what there are already, one doesn’t plan well for the future.. and maybe even losses the present…